Tell him that you have to work. Tell him you don’t want to. That mom has to make money. When he says he wants to stay home, tell him that you do too. He’s little. Duplicate his tears. Wipe them off with your W-2s. Tell him he’ll like this daycare better than the last. That it has a pretty rock garden out back.
Tell him to close your bedroom door. Tell him he can’t leave. That he must always carry this secret. When he says he wants to go home, tell him you might show up. He’s terrified. Duplicate the way his body shakes. Wipe your semen off with a tissue. Tell him he’ll like it better next time. That you’ll put a pet rock inside his pocket as a reward.
Tell him about damnation. Tell him it’s a place that can’t be left. That he’s grown and is on his way there. When he says he doesn’t want it to be his home, tell him to stop choosing it. He’s responsible. Duplicate his concern for these urges he now has. Sing a hymn about the Great Dragon stealing souls. Tell him Hell awaits him. That the rock he carries is weighing down his spirit.
Tell him he’s going to jail. Tell him it’s for life. That he can never leave. When he yells that he wants out, tell him there’s no parole. He’s pathetic. Duplicate the volume in his voice. Sing out the words of the mandatory sentencing statute. Tell him he won’t like it where he’s going. That you’re putting down your gavel to throw a rock at him.
Tell him he gets the bottom bunk. Tell him that he won’t like the mattress. That it’s not very comfortable. When he says he wants to sleep in his own bed, tell him he’ll never sleep again. He’s weak. Duplicate his exhaustion. Yawn when his new friends arrive. Tell him that the men in here are horny. That it will feel like a rock is being shoved inside his ass.
Tell him that we no longer have a phone. Tell him that we have no mailbox. That our voice is unified. When he asks for forgiveness, tell him that we hate him. He’s trash. Duplicate his indifference. Shrug when he says goodbye. Tell him that we’re going to a lake. That we’ll throw a rock inside of it and watch it sink to the bottom.
Tell him these things and tell him nothing else.
(above text by Match Ryan)